i want to sleep on a cloud tonight. float and drift away from this loveless world.

none of this even matters.

all that does is Him, is Love

जोय जोय जोय

"joy joy joy overflowin' whenever i put my trust in thee। i give it up, and let it go. like a child i believe that you know whats best for me. oh, what joy that comes washin' over me."
i listen to a friend and i sing this song over, and all of a sudden; i dont feel alone anymore because i know he's here. its so beautiful and pure that i wish the song could go on forever. singing for him is more fullfilling than singing about anything else in the world. because he the the creator of it all. so why worship his works, rather than him, himself?
i may not know for sure that he is real, but this is that track that i choose to set my life on. his teachings are the most inspiring and his love... well, he is the begining and the end.
but i must admit, if it wasn't for it being proven scientifically, i wouldn't be convinced.
a little side note: in the big bang theory, the "big bang" itself all started when every partical in the universe (pause for a second and try to concieve that...) turned into light. everything and everywhere there was light.
now tell me, what was one of God's first commands?
ah, thats right
"LET THERE BE LIGHT!"
this wouldnt be a big deal to me if the bible hadn't been written before scientists figured this out... its amazing. science has proven something so inconcievable. God's words.

postsecret.com is deffinately one of my favorite places to visit while im on the internet. and i'll show you why...










people can speak thier minds and tell thier deepest darkest secrets and just send them in on a postcard for the whole world to see... anonymously of course

think for yourself, and say what you think. that way, you will only say what you really mean and what is coming from your heart.

a prayer

i have been given all the love in the world, but have no idea how to use it.

LORD... intervene!


please?





for you are the creator of love and the beggining of this desire. my heart may rest in you, but the more it resides within you, the more love i need to give. i need an open door, and one that i can actually not just take a step twards, but walk through and into someone so deprived of love that i may give mine away.

this, residing in you; gives me unspeakable joy. so much joy that i just look like a fool. smiling at eveyone, and talking to people with such optimism and love and happiness that it might just make them unconfortable. LORD show me how to use this joy.

show me LORD how you intend on using this love you have given me. i want to go, i want to leave, and i want to just simply dissinegrate into your spirit and into their hearts.



and lastly, i want to melt into his eyes. he who will be mine. forever.

my belief in love is one so strong that i hope, one day, i may break through all the walls that a person puts up and just simply melt their hard hearts into goo. in just one look.

my life in a shallow social realm is over. im done with it, and i hope you are too. come back down, to the things that are important in this life. God, Family and Love, the only things that last and the only things that matter. There is a light and an endless love to find at the end of the journey, so just have a little faith. We all have to find something to believe in, in this world, and this is mine.

why do we live our lives telling lies and being someone who we feel unconfortable with. this life is more critical than we all realize. this is our only chance, our only heart beat and twitch of a muscle to live. our lives could be so much happier, so much more plentiful and full of love and Gods glory but we are selfish. selfish in the most self destructive way. we are killing our very essence, the only thing that will cary is on! our soul! your soul! you are ruining everything for youself. dont you see it? dont you get it? if you could only see into my mind! then maybe you would understand and someday, i hope i will too.

God is love

Love is all we need

who are you? cause i love him.

you dont notice that everytime i tell you i love you, its for a purpose. i never say it just to say it, im too carefull with my words.

love me, because i love you. my insides have died but evertime i see you something happens to me that i have no control over. my heart moves as fast as a leopard and my hands and knees shake like california in 1994. the first thing that enters my mind is the first thing that exits my mouth. no control, but completely afraid and completely voulnerable.

i say to me, get a hold of yourself. but everytime you smile or even look at me, i get that indescribible, terrible yet amazing feeling. but why dont you care? do you see what your doing to me? this is pain when you dont even care. not love. torture.

couldn't you have cared for me, told me something that i can hold onto? but even if you dont, i can never let go. in my nightmare is the day you decide to spend the rest of your life with someone whos not me. to say that you will love her forever and always. to say that you will cherish her always and forever. i want to be with you. dont you get it?

but now i find that you have changed.

and now who is it that i love?